Three words to describe myself now. The sands of time has conspired me to forget about pursuing further advancements into my hobby, or for that matter, anything else now.
It’s been four years since I graduated from my polytechnic. The job prospects in the industry I’m specialized in, sucked big time. Expect long hours and little pay, and a potential to burn out before I turn 30.
My personal life has never been this low. After a slow and painful realization process, I wished I was blissfully ignorant about life, but alas! Once known, twice shy.
Because of this, I don’t have anything constructive… wait, I do.
Cosplay photography
As I looked at the various galleries of various photographers I spotted on both Clubsnap and SGCafe, I realized that some of them have a very healthy income to fall back on. I mean, c’mon, I don’t expect to see a good quality image on a low-end camera–
I cut myself out on that part, realizing I just fell into the same category as MrMayat’s GWC people. That means I sucked at being a good photographer.
That’s probably me, because I think too much when it comes to things.
Personal Life
To be honest, I am quite screwed up with my personal life: no savings, no money, no nothing. I have spoken with a few that within a short period of time, I will be moving out of my home country, and that sucks, because I have to change all the things I got accustomed to.
I just don’t know if I had to stay in Singapore, or move out along with family. Here’s my line of thinking:
1. Move out of Singapore, be beholden in debt to my family, which means forget about pursuing your passions: feed the family first, then you can enjoy your passion.
2. Stay in Singapore, and be sucky for the rest of my life.
I don’t know. My language has degenerated into a 14-year-old kid who rants on Blogger. I’m just putting this out, because I simply sucked.
Sucked, sucked, sucked.
I need a motivation to do the things I wanted to do, and not hold back because of religious commitments or placating my parents or whatsoever. I’m having a Shinji Ikari moment here; sucks to be a Singaporean working adult, and a product of the mass-manufactured human labour factory that the managers (a.k.a. the Government) realized have been producing the wrong kind of crap for a totally-changed world.
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Didn’t read this until I got back from our Saturday meet-up. I guess we’ve discussed a few of the topics then. To reiterate:
- It’s always the person behind the camera first and equipment second. Better equipment can make things easier, but a creative mind can work around it. Experiment, experiment, experiment. You saw how I worked. The failure rate was high to get the effect I wanted (sort of). Then again, everyone has different interests in photography genres. Shoot what you like to refresh your batteries before re-attempting your weak areas. Try to incorporate elements from your favourite genre into it if possible.
- My income is average and I do not take into account how much I save monthly, but I do take note not to succumb to impulse buys. Read up on minimalist living websites. Falling out of the rat race doesn’t mean the end. You’ll learn to make do with less.
- Filial piety is a harsh mistress. If your parents are infirm and cash strapped, it’s much harder to break free. If not, monthly tributes and frequent visits will make do. Too many people are trapped in a depressing state for the sake of filial piety. I’m not saying that you have to be a bastard, but divide the responsibility with your brother.
Hope you read this once you’ve returned from your reservist. Happy servitude.